Living With Your Size 8 Foot In Your Mouth
Intentionally, I don't say things that annoy or upset people. Throughout my life I've worked hard not to do so. It's a huge part of my personality and it also enables me to avoid conflict.
But, there's just a few times where I've put my foot in it big time. A couple of times, it's got me abuse. My sister hit me one time and for the life of me, I can't remember what I said. Even seconds afterwards, I couldn't remember. It's like my mind just blanked it out (blackouts are another post I intend to write later). I just don't have any control whatsoever with what I say or when I say it.
Another time, in a social situation, I just blurted out, "Are you two still having an affair?" I remember saying that but I wasn't able to control it. Everybody knew about it but it was me who said something. Go me. Suffice to say, I didn't win any friends over that one. The weird thing is, I don't even feel guilty, ashamed or mortified. It's like I'm just being honest. They are not lies, they're just a social minefield.
Luckily, these times are few and far between. But, they have a consequence. I become even more alone each time.
Who wants to have anything to do with someone like that?
(Do you know, I don't even know how to tag this post.)
December 30th, 2017